Journal

Insomniac's Journal

Words birthed in the internal

His subconscious' dunk-tank

These words remained unranked

Articulate the contemplations

Of these waking frustrations

Pen in hand

Sleep be damned

These are the greatest thoughts in the land

But why do they come at 4 in the morning

Must write them down

And heed the warning

His memory won't serve him as well when he wakes

If only he knew what was at stake

Words, Words, and more still left to come

Cannot stop till he sees the sun

Sunken eyes

Blood shot red

Sleep finally comes to the walking dead

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Wayward Whisperings

I bridge the gap between second and third
The intrinsic value
Of a flightless bird
A hole within space
Infinite and abysmal
indescribably undefined
I grope for my soul

An imaginary man
With invisible footsteps
With no past and no future
I sit here on doorsteps
Doorsteps leading to doors
With no passage
Just doorknobs, hinges, brick walls
And static
I move with the grace and the pace
Of a man with no purpose
Devoid of objective
Amounting to worthless
I glide through the cacophony of life
With no one on my arm
This yellow brick road
Is tattered and worn
My eyes make no contact
My breath marks no air
my voice makes no sound
I withdraw to my lair
Where I simply exist
Although debatable that
Like mist in a cage
I choose to be trapped

Monday, May 27, 2013

The Sculptor's Storm

The hailstorm of being
Flings boulders of ice
Whilst words are whispered in my ear
That the sky is falling

The pitter-patter of a gentle summer's rain
Used to be the beat and tempo
To which I set my refrain
My chorus
My bridge
My whole composition
But the storms have set in
And my pitter-patter now booms with thunder
And crashes with lightning

Like crumbling monuments
From those of us
In centuries past
I've seen what was, what is, and what soon shall pass
Like the sculptor
My actions etch shape
Into the makings of my own future
He, who I will be
Watches me
From inside the block of stone that is my life

I'm chiseling away
With expert precision
But the hailstorm marks my masterpiece
With threatening imperfections
Relentless
Unceasing
Unyielding
Increasing
Frequency and intensity
The boulders now fly
With malice and spite
My song skips a beat
All bark and all bite

Some demon unleashed
This salvo upon me
This sculptor is broken
My stone falls around me

I've ripped a hole in the sky
And shouted out into space
The lead I have lost
In this mad dashing race

I'm sorry
Forgive me
Clip the madness quickly
I watched these cities fall down
Quickly and without sound
The monuments we built
Barely stand at half mast
Wondering if this was truly the last

Predictions of God's little fingers
Playing games of chance with blindfolds
We linger

In ruins of home
And wastelands formerly know as tomorrow
My masterpiece
Now the infinite sorrow
My old vinyl slips
On the absence of pitter-patters
The hailstorm of being
Deals its blow



Friday, May 10, 2013

The Rebirth of Magic


Little globes of vision
Blink with design
By the hand of a magic man
Or by generations in time
Little digits of curiosity
Grip for everything that they can
A marvel and a wonder
Awe-stricken for a span
Fingers touch to fingers
Like a twig to a stump
Dryness in your throat
Swallowing lumps
Little life is cultivated
From somewhere in the beyond
The mystery is showing
Koi circling in a pond

This is the infinite
Wonderment of the innocent
Playing the roles of gods
With no knowledge or forethought
With mere seeds
Grows the world
With time’s passing
So do we
Just enough days
To be jaded by miracles
Faded to cynical
Death is never the pinnacle 
Forgotten majestics
Pushed to the backs of our heads
Monotony
With which we fill our lives instead
I urge you to remember this moment
This one right here
Hold it in your mind’s eye
Keep it crystalline clear
For all those instances and times in this life
When you doubted magic
It got lost amidst the pain and the strife
But this here is proof
You are holding its hand
The mystic call of the world
Believe it if you can
Glance into those globes
Of everything pure and enchanted
And know in your heart
Magic exists