Comet Thought From The Pontificating Mind

Pontificating mind
Expanding all the time
Parallel and alternate
Dare I walk the line
On the borders of imagination
Reason and structure
To cross over now
first courage I must muster
Rarified wonder
Has struck like a fist
Like a bolt of lightning
Like a warm and wet kiss
Larger than life
But shaped like a brain
My whole world and universe
In my head
It is contained

Well
When you think about it
That's pretty God damn amazing
Considering it all
The minutiae's disgracing
My minuscule thoughts
And even more minuscule words
Everything about me
Is mere food for the birds
Who gives a care
What I do, think, or say
All my attempts
All areas of gray
I've been struck with the realization
That it doesn't matter a bit
Even though I'm a self contained universe
I guess I'll just call it quits
A great man once said
"I think, therefore I am."
His very own Big Bang
Existence holds our hand

If validation is the only way
To be
Or maybe
Not to be
Then I guess I could see how that would be a problem
Because validation is as fleeting
As a thought passing through my universe
Like the purpose to my verse
Like we've never seen worse
Like an old hearse carrying dead folk around
Who once lived a life
Their words once made the sounds
Of the unimaginable miracle of being
The impractical science of seeing
Feeling and touching
Living and loving
But now
They are all just collapsed dimensions
With wasted pensions
The dichotomy of life
Its deathly dissensions
Truncated wonderings
That will never be complete
The thoughts they were thinking
Cut short by the faltering of this heartbeat
This is the way
Living day by day
Like comets in the sky
We're all just passing by

A Not So Slip Of The Tongue

I could say
You are very pretty
I might have even ventured to use the word beautiful
But I'd rather not scare you off
so for now its just

Sixth grade language
and teenager demeanor
Elementary notions
The infinite schemer
my Old timer's wisdom
In a box at the foot of my bed
I got plenty of time to Speak my mind
before I am dead
I could sit and watch for a million years
Before I understood my greatest fears
I could hold my mistakes in the palm of my hands
Let them trickle through my fingers
Like tiny grains of sand
And still not know

I am sitting in front of you
with nothing but the best of intentions
I'm wearing it all on my sleeve
And it hurts
Not to mention
I'm whispering
The greatest words
Like silk strings in the air
Midnight with starlight sprinkles
An audacious affair
Silence waits with your response
With anxious intoxication
If I told you
You were beautiful...

I sit here with patience

Watching Through The Window

I kinda wanna sit around with you

And watch it all from my window

I wish I had a clue of what to do

But lately I’ve realized

I just don’t know

I kinda wanna bury my face in the pillow

And let the soft cotton

Soak up my sweet sweet oxygen

I kinda wanna fall to the bottom

Of the deepest part in the ocean

And just chill there for a bit

I kinda want to break loose

And break everything that I own

I kinda wanna break free

Break out and head out all alone

I kinda wanna build a contraption

That would make me fly

I kinda wanna know all the answers

To the questions that started with why

I kinda wanna know

What I kinda wanna do

And I know you’re over there thinking

What thoughts I’m thinking of you

But my thoughts really have no direction

I’m on a mad tear

Whimsical nonsense

There’s no time to spare
I cannot control

This reckless rampage

My thoughts are all actors

Playing parts on a stage

In a play that only makes sense to me

Myself and I

To that we agree

I kinda wanna do none of these things

But all at once

Because It’s kinda fun just sitting here with you

And watching it all from the window

Grandiose Heartbeats

Grandiose heartbeats of the universe

Ebb and flow in reverse

My heart beats with the world

My heart weeps for the girl

With wise words on her chest

I pump misery

From the source

And let it spin around me

Acquaintances show remorse

But I dismiss it kindly

I’m burning bridges left and right

Toxic flames engulf my sight

Orange and Red

I paint the night

With gloom and doom

I think I might

Jump from this here balcony

You should’ve watched me closely

This magic trick

This sleight of hand

You thought my shield could withstand

More than all

And Better than

But I was just a lesser man

Just two legs

Two arms

Two hands

Tender feet

Palms and Plans

There was only one storm I was meant to weather

The light is growing bright and redder

Just a few more words

A few more letters

Farewell

To these good wishes

Somewhere 
We turned out better

Eye of The Storm

Deep breaths

Through a chest full of glass
The pace it quickens 
The pain is fast

Hold it there

Intake 

Through lungs that bleed
Through thoughts that tremble
Through Satan's weeds

Hold it there

Clear
The bramble
The hazy fear
The anxious breathlessness
Be only here

Hold it there

Whirlwinds of life

Madly move through your mind
Whatever it was
You've left it behind

Hold it there

Smile through closed eyes
With peace on your lips
Whisper the world 
Your forgiveness
And then 

Let it go.