Journal

Insomniac's Journal

Words birthed in the internal

His subconscious' dunk-tank

These words remained unranked

Articulate the contemplations

Of these waking frustrations

Pen in hand

Sleep be damned

These are the greatest thoughts in the land

But why do they come at 4 in the morning

Must write them down

And heed the warning

His memory won't serve him as well when he wakes

If only he knew what was at stake

Words, Words, and more still left to come

Cannot stop till he sees the sun

Sunken eyes

Blood shot red

Sleep finally comes to the walking dead

Thursday, February 28, 2013

And Then There Was None

This is the last
You were the one
It all ended fast
Glad you had fun
We stole what we could
We laughed and we danced
These times, they were good
All whims and chance
I'm lonely now
I miss you a ton
My laugh not as rich
I can't dance with just one
I've laid you to rest
More times than I know
Goodbyes and best wishes
Closure doesn't come wrapped in a bow

I say goodnight
To sleep
I have gone
The rain too peaceful
The memories run

One final showing

One last admission

One more viewing

Before your excision

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Water for Roses

This the product of a new generation
Frightening advancements
And a new placation
Soothingly discreet
But nonetheless abrasive
Rudely encroaching
Bluntly invasive
The dry machines
Taxed to the maximum
But no one seems to care
How much they all ask of them
An unsustainable cycle
Built to collapse into ruin
The new is coming
No idea what they're doing

A nobody
From the boondocks of nowhere
With callused feet
And not a penny to spare
Finds himself lost
In the new century stampede
Arms open
His cuts
They bleed
Help
Help me
Help me please
The innocent cry
The naive plea
There is no help
It dried up long ago
No room for stragglers
Their worries and woes
Loose the dead weight
Cut the loose ends
Shape up or ship out
When the new century begins
All we have room for
Is the ten percent
Of the ten percent
But his pockets are empty
And barren of any cents
Angry stares
And upturned noses
Petals fall
From failing roses
Dead and browning
They do sit
The stragglers forced to make their exit
The last one leaves
As the last petal falls
But a simple glass of water could have brought back it all

Saturday, February 23, 2013

On Display

I want my thoughts
To be shot out the back of my head
And splattered on a wall
Like tiny little galaxies
I want you to have them all
I want them shared
Discussed
Admired
And respected
Their origin not important
Their depth is not detected
They are my anonymous gift
To the world at large
Horribly wrapped
And roughly delivered

So to you I say
Listen up and look closely
These are the parts that matter most
They are the keys to my soul
You'd think I'd keep them close
But instead
I have given them to you to hold

Oddly enough
I'd hoped I could hold yours too
Because deep thoughts can be heavy
When they have nothing to do
Keep them moving and busy
Constantly on the go
From person to person
They travel to and fro
Now, see here
Look
At your gift
To the world
Your contemplations laid out
Your musings unfurled
We are the axis
Upon which the earth spins
We are the life
That our brain comprehends
We are generous people
Are we not?
We are faithfully shared
Fueled by knowledge and thought




Tuesday, February 12, 2013

One Small Step for A Dust Bunny of The Universe

I want to be bigger
A giant among men
Spin the world on my fingertips
All ten
And then

Breath the air from the lungs of a beautiful girl
Caress the curvature of the earth
As it spins and twirls

I wish
I wish
To do these things
To flicker like fire
To live like kings
Break open the minds
Of the strangers I see
Run wires from everyone else to me
To let us all know
That we are all connected
And if I wasn't convinced
I would simply have my wire inspected
A tangible thing
To prove that small is not real
We are one seething mass
Of thought and feel

I can affect you
As you can to me
Everything is as intertwined
As the roots of the tree

Isolation is illusion
Built by insecurity and doubt
If I feel small
It's because this illusion has clout

A speck of insignificance
I count myself amongst the dust bunnies of the universe
Hiding behind and under
Bigger and better things
Infinitely minuscule
To greatness
I cling
Hoping to tear off a piece for myself
To drape it 'round my frame
To create the illusion of grandeur
But this fantasy
Is more accurately
A delusion of grandeur

Maybe what I seek
Is inherently flawed
Greatness for greatness' sake
Is not a thing to be awed

Greatness is the product
Of the long and winding road
The cuts from the brambles
The bruises from the load
The asthma from the heartache
Lacerations from the hounds
This blood pulses like the tide
Growth measured
In leaps and bounds

Bigger and Better
Lies at the end of that road
But it is an impossible trek
True danger it does bode

I am small
And I cannot travel that far
Maybe we are all just meant to be what we are

Progress and growth
May not be in the cards for me
But then I tug on my wire
And I look out to see

Gods among men
Spinning worlds upon their fingertips
Eating stars like they're potato chips
Bouncing the cosmos around their hips
Like it was as easy as hula-hoop

Aghast in wonder
My doubt torn asunder
I trace that wire
From me to them
Through the long and winding road
It wanders in

I grip tightly
With strong and steady hands
Around my connection to greatness
Take one small step forward
And brace my soul
For the journey of a lifetime









Saturday, February 2, 2013

The Wilder West

We have bent the knee
To figments
Of Our Collective Imagination
Our alcoholic potions
And disillusioned creations
Our influenced decisions
A mental decapitation

Our brains in jars
Pumped with want and need
A breeding ground for wanton greed
Stop your spinning wheels
And breakdown the machine
Don't be a cog
But rather a seed
Live to grow
Not to function
Broken crossroads
And dead-end junctions
Your travels
Nothing more than
Fruitless compunctions

Stop your pacing
And take a deep breath
Start out on your path
Because for us

"The road has always led west"