Journal

Insomniac's Journal

Words birthed in the internal

His subconscious' dunk-tank

These words remained unranked

Articulate the contemplations

Of these waking frustrations

Pen in hand

Sleep be damned

These are the greatest thoughts in the land

But why do they come at 4 in the morning

Must write them down

And heed the warning

His memory won't serve him as well when he wakes

If only he knew what was at stake

Words, Words, and more still left to come

Cannot stop till he sees the sun

Sunken eyes

Blood shot red

Sleep finally comes to the walking dead

Monday, February 20, 2012

What We Made

Babies are born
Children are raised
But people are made

Steeped in life's brew
For a decade or two
Designed and created
By more than a few

Frequently shaped
Molded and prodded
Goaded and prompted
Persuaded and modded

Yours
Mine's
And everything in between
Influenced
Directed
Vetted then screened
Wrapped and packaged
By the largest of teams
An assembly line
Never to be seen

Friday, February 17, 2012

Sometimes

I wonder sometimes at the heart of all things

I wonder about the girl with the fake smile
What she thinks?
What she thinks of me?

I wonder sometimes about the words of a liar
About their purpose and point
And why they burn with such fire?

I wonder sometimes about the intentions of a friend
Never to be questioned
But I do

I wonder sometimes about the depth of a secret
I peek under the pretense
But I'd rather not know

I wonder sometimes
But I'm not looking for answers

My wondering leaves me with
A handful of half-imagined truths
Hell-bent on the destruction of my mind

I wonder if I should stop?

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Hero's Burden

Wanna be a hero?
Then come here with me
One man's death is all I ask
Maybe two
Maybe three

I'll tell you when to stop
Put a price on their heads
And then watch them run
You will become a golden idol
Of the highest order
A god among men
The blood on your hands
Is an insignificant sin

Now that you've made it
Watch for the knife at your throat
And the sword over your head
This is the hero's burden

Beautifully Decrepit

Beautifully Decrepit
Tactfully Insipid

Checked-out
Beat-Down
Broken-hearted man

Glory drained
Blood stained
Bleary eyed
And fever pained

Hopelessly in love

Shot-up
Screwed with
Kick him while he's down

Stand up
Fight back
Tell 'em Kiss Your Ass

Throw a punch
Kick up dust
Win her back
Broken heart, or not

Man of steel
Built to wield
A sword of truth and vengeance

The stench of vermin
Rules the land
But not for long
Comeback Kid strong

The hand of god can't stop me now
I come to strike the final blow

Enchanting fire
Whispers heart's desire
But I cannot

My will's retired

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

A Wish

Tomorrow,
Yesterday's forever
Inevitable,
In good or worse weather

Hatred burns a pointless fire
Forget it and strive to aspire

A wish to return
A fool's wasted turn
Never to be granted
Never to be earned

Accept the horizon
It's closer than expected
Eyes toward a downcast son
But what a beautiful sunset

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

State of Affairs

Timmy tells lies to talk to the people

Timmy tells lies to talk to the people

Timmy tells lies to talk to the people

And the people just won't talk back


Because the people want this

And the people want that

And the people just won't talk back


And Timmy says, ok.

And Timmy says, of course.

And Timmy says, sure, why not.


And the people say, yes

And the people say, thank you

And the people say, Timmy's the best


And Timmy tells lies to talk to the people

And the people listen intently


But one day Timmy tells lies to the people

And the people turn and tell him NO

And Timmy says why

And the people say, because you lied to us

And Timmy says this wasn't how this was supposed to go


So Timmy continues to tell lies to the people

But the people have turned away

And the lies float in one ear and out the other and on to others across the way


And those people listen to Timmy's lies, because they've never heard them before

And it's sad to see the hope in their faces and trust in their eyes

As they stare at Timmy who they simply adore


So.....


Timmy tells lies to talk to the people

Friday, February 3, 2012

Gray World

I don't live in a world of extremes
Or a world of black and white
I live in a world of gray
Where people are nice and polite

They tell me what I like to hear
To get me off their backs
But nothing close to honest fears
Their lies are mounted on plaques

Who am I to judge the judged?
No one of importance
Just a man of gray
No one cares for my two cents

A mild-mannered world
With deep dark secrets
Where people smile and pretend
And gray men are lead to early crypts.